Tristan says:

it was mostly fumbling and trying to say the right thing, or not really knowing what to say at all.
it was being so nervous that you're off balance completely and unsure.
it was that tingling in your fingers and on the edge of your lips, waiting for the touch, the kiss.
it was being so unawares, so off guard, so bare and trembling.
it was that you knew it was going to be more than you could take, that it was going to be something that, even if it didn't happen (what you'd hoped would happen), you would remember and it would warm you, and you think on it again, over and over, and how close you came to holding the moment for even a little while.

you'll think of his smile or the sound of his voice, or maybe the trace of his fingertips along your back will linger longer than it should.

>>>>how did you know this is what i'd always wanted?<<<<

all of these things, and you'll recall and know and wish and love and more.
it becomes something else, something better, and it's all involved, it holds everything from before and later.

"what do you love more than love?" Dar Williams